Sir Elton is blaring away in my headset at the moment, but I'll switch over to Flosstube after our visit. I am woefully behind, but have the whole weekend to catch up! JB is going to run to and fro and might go to the football game, but I am going to enjoy a few days of Spinster Time to do my thing. Then, on Sunday, I am going to meet another college friend for Mass and a catch-up!
I really love these visits. For so many years I cocooned myself away and didn't answer the phone when friends called. Leaving CS1 was just too much of a nightmare for me, and the feeling of shame that I felt for falling so far down the well was paralyzing.
Then I woke up one day and realized that people didn't care if I was sick, broke, unemployed, covered in dog pee, and completely incapable of normal life. They didn't mind that I was quiet or sad or frustrated. They just wanted to lay eyes on me, have a laugh or two, and gently remind me that being a fabulous career woman who could leap tall buildings at a single bound wasn't who I was completely. I'm just me. And that's OK.
Humility is an amazing thing. My whole life was spent trying to be the Rock of Gibralter for friends and family, and when I couldn't do that anymore I figured everybody would skeedaddle. But I was the doofus that skeedaddled, and it wasn't until I squashed my big fat ego that I got anywhere.
I'm still sick and I'm still broke and I'm still unemployed, but I'm here, and that's a miracle to me.
You, Dearies, are no small part in all of this peace, and today is as good a day as any to remind you of it. I really do love and appreciate every single moment we share together...whether it's on this here blog, via email, snailmail, or any other way I get to spend time with you. You. Rock. My. World.
No idea where any of that came from, but now it's time to get on with it.
Happy Friday...Happy Weekend! Do something fabulous and come tell me all about it!
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